Things are really really REALLY good right now.  Hence the no updating in like 3 months...which believe it or not is a good thing, since I only come to this thing in angry, depressed, sarcastic, or reminiscent times.  Recently I've been living more in the present ...which if you know me well, you know is really against my nature. 

The weather is finally turning my way, my friends are fabulous, I'm enjoying Berkeley more and more recently, and I'm really looking forward to the summer and my 21st, my dad's big 50th with my entire extended family, upcoming planned vacations and roadtrips, Fosters and Clorox, and next semester.

I miss home a lot though...and more and more I'm abandoning the idea of working abroad after graduation.  In fact, more and more I'm looking at companies headquartered in LA.  I don't want to limit myself, but at the same time I miss everyone soo much. I miss the weather, I miss dance, I miss my dog, I miss the beach...the list is endless.  We'll see...even though I'm psyched to be working at Foster's this summer, I know that if I had tried harder, I could have found a job just as good in so cal.  Oh well.

Anyways my room is a nightmare, so before I hit up that bastardly subject called "finance," I've got to tackle the piles of crap everywhere. peace.

I haven't been this happy since Spain.   

happy new year everyone!!!  it's 2006, fun times. but scary.  i really dislike getting older.   in korea, everyone turns a year older on january 1st.  it's weird...so i'd officially turn 21 today (yesterday), even though i was born in June. that i might appreciate more...for now, it's just waiting...and wishing...and hoping....and praying...and i'll stop now. 

i'm in a weird place right now.  i can't describe it, but i feel very undefined and unstable and unsure.  i don't like this "un"-place. ehh don't really want to think about it.  my current status is nothing to complain about....sleeping, curling up with harry potter, working out, sleeping, eating, and being an all around hermit. but now that the holiday hoopla has settled down, i think i'll be getting out more this week before kids go back to school.  should be good times.

i need a new mp3 player.  and not an ipod, those pieces of crap. my ipod died literally two days after a year, and cause i didn't buy that ridiculous customer care insurance or whatever they won't fix it.  booo.  now, if i'm going to invest in one i want one that allows for radio playing and radio recording.  i heard i-rivers are good...any other suggestions?

in irvine...so far just been chilling with my family and the yayas.  apparently i missed the whole "high school reunion" at the performing arts concert last night and tonight.  to be honest, i was not in the mood....my apathy > my curiosity. i didnt feel like schmoozing with the old kids; frankly i'm perfectly fine with checking in on them once and a while via facebook.  how sad.  i'm definitely a loner. 

tomorrow (today) and day after is the yaya love fest...our semi-annual 'official' hanging out (we're lame, we know it) and then our partay in the evening and *attempt* to party all night long. should be fun times. 

aside: i loathe shopping.  absolutely detest it.   the lines are ridiculous...the spectrum was packed today at 1 in the frikin afternoon.  why aren't you ppl working!?!

so yayaness, then christmas with the fam and cousins from virginia, then all of us are going to stay 3 or 4 days at some resort in san diego, woohoo.  i'm going to try and get some work done in that time seeing as i'll be surrounded by munchkins (DONT) and oldies reminiscing about the motherland.  no new years plans as of yet, but i kind of want to spend it at home. i've found i don't like partying in orange county that much.  home is too closely connected to family and high school and other wholesome goodness...it feels weird to try and 'go out' here.

alright totally exhausted and attempting to wake up at 7 am tomorrow, gross.

Baby if you’re good to go, we’ll go down to Mexico
Get a place in Cabo, kick back in the sand
It’ll be just you and me, and moonlight dancing on the sea
To the Spanish guitar melody of a mariachi band

I got two tickets bought
There won’t be no second thought
Weather’s always nice down there in paradise
We’ll find that little man who owns that taco stand
We’ll be drinkin’ margaritas while we’re workin’ on our tan

Baby if you’re good to go, we’ll go down to Mexico
Get a place in Cabo, kick back in the sand
If you’ll get off that telephone and put your shorts and sandals on
Tomorrow we’ll be dancing to a mariachi band

Cancun don’t get me high
That’s where the snow birds fly
They like to winter there
Man they come from everywhere
I’ll take the Baja sun
It ain’t overrun
With all the gringos and the touristas
We might be the only ones...

even though i despise country music, i love this song. some of you know why i especially love this song...  i heartily miss cabo times.  man, i am mature.  anyways this summer the plan is greece!  so excited.

soo today i saw the coolest thing...i didn't think this stuff happened in real life. especially in college where everyone is self-conscious x infiniti (except when intoxicated).  So it was five minutes till psych was to start, and ppl were trickling in, finding seats, chatting etc...and this girl is standing with a group of friends when this guy comes up behnid her and taps her on the shoulder.  note, i was already seated a couple rows back; i could see everything unfolding but i could only make out the conversation half of the time...though i could fill in the rest pretty easily through inference.  Anyways she turns around and is like "yea?" and he goes, "hey, i've seen you in the class a couple of times, and i just wanted to tell you that i think you're really beautiful."  her; "Oh my gosh! wow. that's so sweet.  what's your name?"  ::introductions, shaking hands etc::  him: "will you take a seat with me, i'd love to talk to you for a little bit"  her, after exchanging glances with her friends: "umm sure, i'm actually going to sit with my friends for lecture, but we can sit for right now" small talk follows: how do you like the class, are you a psych major, have you done all your decade courses etc etc.  eventually the professor makes his way in, she takes her seat with friends and he sits directly behind her, they continue talking as professor sets up, him: "so yea, you seem like a pretty cool person"  her: "aww thanks.  it's kind of shocking that you  like *noticed* me"  him: "well, it's kind of impossible not to notice you"  her, after awkwardly mumbling thanks and trying to get back into her friends' conversations: "so i guess lecture is about to start, but it was cool talking to you"  him:"yea, so before lecture starts, do you think you would possibly be interested in going out on date with me?"  her, totally uncomfortably: "uhhh, that's really sweet, umm, i'm not...i mean, i don't think....sorry, i don't think i would be. i'm really sorry"  him: "ok" and then he gets up and leaves.  then immediately all her friends pounce on her for info, what was that, what did he want, that's so strange, why'd you turn him down, etc. 

I don't know if he left lecture completely or moved to a different seat, but it was quite fascinating to watch the whole thing.  that guy has balls.  he wasn't that bad looking, and she wasn't that good looking, but whatever.  man you could write a psych text book and that interaction right there.

ok enough about psychological observations, i need a halloween costume stat!  i'm leaving for tahoe tomorrow and there's a big halloween party going down saturday night.  any suggestions?

ok i'm going to get a snack, do laundry, and start doing phone interviews on identity theft victims for imagical.  fun times.  laterrrr. 

booya world.  and by world, i mean all three of you who read this.  i have been MIA cause quite frankly i've been crazy busy.  but it's good...i like having cosas que hacer.  in the last month i've been pretty busy with ImagiCal (student advertising firm) and AIESEC.  I've totally neglected classes, but surprisingly i'm doing well in them.  Cept for clinical psych, that mofo. There's no way to do well on those tests unless you memorize the entire DSM-IV.  (it's the medical handbook that outlines all the symptoms, medical history, hypotheses etc to diagnosis a patient with a certain disorder.  It’s a fattie, trust me).  Anyways it's good and bad that I can do well without trying.  On the one hand, yesssssss.  On the other hand, I’m going to a school where every other professor is a nobel laureate or something, and I never take advantage of all the great resources and cool people around here.  I mean the least I could do is go just TALK to a professor.  I’ve been here 2+ years and I’ve only been to office hours TWICE.  Once during the first week of class when I was a paranoid freshman and all the upper classmen I had met told me to “take advantage of office hours” even though I didn’t really understand what they were.  And the other time it was manditory.  So yea.  Plus I’ve been ditching a lot of class, not doing problem sets etc.  It’s so bad.  But it’s cause I am sooo involved in my extra-curriculars.  Sad but true…in any case, I kind of feel like I’m beyond school at this point. That sounds cocky.  What I mean is I’m done reading the book, memorizing, spitting it out.  It’s more the organizations that reflect real world problem-solving and teamwork that I’m learning more from.  <I know prep at end of the sentence, shut up jerkhole>   anyways cause of these groups the year has been hectic…almost every weekend of this semester I have spent/will spend out of town (san jo, sf, davis, tahoe, irvine etc).  It’s cool, but exhausting.  I’m looking forward to winter break; as of now, I plan to veg in oc, and maybe indulge in a few weekend trips with family or yayas etc.

So this morning I was supposed to meet up with a friend and get back into dancing.  I haven’t danced since May, and those muscles which used to be rock hard are sadly no more.  The last couple of times I’ve gone home and had to perform, my dance teacher is always like, you are out of shape.  uhh thanks.  Anyways the girl couldn’t make it, and I’m glad, cause even though I really want to get back into dancing, I really needed to sleep in.  Last night ImagiCal had a social which was fun until the cops broke us up (boo).  It was a bonfire out on Ocean Beach in SF (we caught the sunset driving over the bridge…it was beautiful).  Anyways we roasted hot dogs, s’mores and had beers all around…and this guy showed up with a bongo drum that was providing the, errr…”music.”  So some drunken tribal dancing went down too.  go imagical!  Anyways the cops showed up cause you’re not supposed to have alcohol on the beach.  We were ordered to stand up, dump out whatever was in our cups, and pack up and leave.  It wasn’t bad because the beach would have closed in 15 minutes anyway, it was just that we had to end on a down note.  Whatever it’s all good.  Some people went off to a Halloween party in the city at the house of an imagical alum, and the rest of us came back to berk…I came back cause it was nic’s birthday and she was having a partizzle.  Too bad it turned into like 5 ppl sitting around.  I guess it flopped cause the football game ended so late.  Anyways came home around 2:30ish, and passed out. 

Today looks like the usual Sunday activities; gym, clean, imagical strat/account meeting, and possibly homework if I have time.  In the words of my lover ron, she needs to straighten out ‘er priorities!  (wow i'm a nerd).